Life and other musings


Hello everyone. I'm back! It's been a little while since the last blog but the reason for that was due to the craziness of my last job which recently wrapped up. For those that don't know I worked as a Pre-College Activities Coordinator for the School of Visual Arts from April until the first week of August. Not only that, but an extra interesting tidbit about my life is that I had been working with the school in (mainly the admissions office) in some capacity since 2008. With the end of my job as an Activities Coordinator also came the end of my time working with the school. Not out of malice or anger, but out of a need for change and to spread my wings and go forth into the artworld. SVA has been a huge part of my life and I have accumulated so many wonderful memories and experiences, but I felt it was time for me to go out into the creative field and make a name for myself. With the end of my job at SVA opens a whole new world of possibilities for me and a new chapter in my life, one in which I hope you will all join me on.

Spread my wings

So when I say "make a name for myself in the creative field" what exactly do I mean? First off, I do not mean that I will forgo creating original content. Making short films and animations is a passion of mine that I intend to continue until I can't. There may be pauses and hiatuses in the future, but I have no intention of stopping. What I mean with that quote is that I want to envelope myself in a creative industry where I work directly with other creative people while getting a nice paycheck to fund those personal projects, and anything else I may need in my personal life. In short, it means working a full time job where the skills I've accumulated end up bringing me financial stability. I've done the starving artist thing before, I've done the 'work a job to get money and do your stuff on the side', I've done freelance and everything inbetween, but now I'm in a position where I have to be a lot smarter about how I spend my time and what I can do to accumulate wealth where I can.

It's not just about the money though, but if I were honest that is about %50 of the reason. The other reason is that by working in a creative field, I will be exposed to more creative types that may appreciate the work I make in a different way- where there is an understanding of the kind of struggle and perseverance needed to make your own work and try to live off of it. I would hope that finding comradeship through this venue can help increase the reach of my own content (while continuing to go through other avenues such as film festivals, networking and so on). In releasing all of the art that I have made these past few years, one sore but important truth I've learned is that I need to find people who are passionate about what I do. That's not to say my friends and family aren't passionate about me as a person or don't like my work, but I need to find more people with a passion for what it is I do. I believe that will be the difference between me creating content as a hobby versus actually living off of the characters I create. That stuff takes time though, but I think in order to get that avenue of my life kick started, I have to stop avoiding the creative community as I had been doing, and become part of, learn and grow from it.

Where do we go now?

You would think that with my verbosity in this blog that I would have a crystal clear idea of what I'm going to do next. If you think that, you would be wrong. I have no idea where or what it is I'm going to do. I have a clear idea of what I do not want to do, and hope that I can build from there, but when it comes to creating a path for the future, I only have a few ideas in my head:

  • One day I would like to pitch/ sell a cartoon
  • I'm split on going to California or staying in New York
  • I would like to build enough of a financial cushion for emergencies or to help family if possible
  • I would like to continue growing my brand

These ideas have been floating in my head for some time and I have been trying to find a way to string them together in a way where I can chip on them little by little each day. It's a long process, but I am finally able to start putting these ideas into action now. I think an important mental note I have made out of all of this is to not get stuck or feel like I have to stay somewhere if it doesn't improve my situation. That has happened to me in the past and I do not recommend it. Going forward I would like to be more in tune with these ideas and to follow my gut and be unafraid to pursue my goals. That takes a level of conviction that I feel I am close to obtaining while also being flexible enough in life and grasping a larger perspective about the interplay between the various elements in my life and how all of that information prompts me to act. I think if I'm aware of these ideas than I'll will be setting myself up to really achieving all that it is I want to do.

Sometimes it's easy to get caught up in these musings but I think the most important thing I can do right now is relax for a bit. I've worked really hard and spent a lot of time creating and planning and so on that I haven't been able to get lost in life's little detours. At the very least I think it might be time for me to cool it for a little while, so when the next problem rears it's head I'm 100% ready to take it on.